When I was going into my freshman year of high school, I was auditioning for my next competitive dance group that summer. I had been dancing since age three. I knew what group I wanted to be in and thought I should be in. At the end of tryouts, I just had this strange feeling I wasn't going to find myself in the group with all my friends. Sure enough, that was the case.
Now, the me preface this by being honest. I didn't attend my technique classes regularly. I was never the strongest dancer out there. But, I also didn't really feel like anyone cared or wanted to take the time to help me individually because I didn't have that "spark" that some of the other dancers had. I've learned over the years, that I need a hard push sometimes and to be held accountable.
So at the end of that summer, I was ready to give up dancing altogether. I wasn't good enough and at that age, I had enough going on that I didn't need my self-esteem to be any lower.
Then I learned that a teacher I had grown to love was opening her own studio. I thought this might be a chance for me to be noticed. It was a small group and I would be dancing with other girls whose skill level was significantly higher than mine. The push I had been looking for.
That year, I grew as a dancer and an individual in ways that I couldn't even imagine. I did my first solo, learned how to do turns in second, my leaps improved greatly, and I even got my triple turn. Deb, the studio owner, saw something in me that she believed in. She never gave up on me, even when she yelled at me for cheating my tap steps or falling out of turns (on stage, at a competition, that we later won... yeah we were just as surprised as you are reading this). I went on to dance at that studio for the next four years and became as great a dancer as I wanted to be. I was never and will never be that "jaw-dropping" dancer, but I learned what it meant to be a team and embraced the challenges and tribulations that came with that.
My point to all of this is when you feel like giving up, know that there is someone out there cheering you on. There are people in your life who want to see you succeed and who will do whatever it takes to get you there. Even if that means making you do 20 push-ups every time you say the word "can't." I learned to not say that at the dance studio after a year or so...
How is this relevant to me today and why am I writing about it? Do you know the number of times I want to give up on being an influencer? At least once a week. I compare myself to my idols and think "I'll never get there so what's the point." Well... the point is YOU. YOU sitting here reading this, liking my photos, engaging with me, following along, asking questions, reaching out. YOU make all of this worth it. So thank you for being the reason I keep going.